Somehow reading this article comforted me and gave me so much insights into what I should do (if it ever comes to this) and how I should do it. But will seriously need to re-evaluate the whole situation because I really do not want to make rash decisions.
I had been feeling so wretched all these while - feeling so guilty - doubting myself so much and feeling so hurt and drained to the point of sleepless nights and actually having headaches because the love and respect I have for this relationship is so much, just too much.
Had so many thoughts, analysis (and over-analysis) and contemplations over this relationship. Shed so much tears yet somehow knowing there may be no way of bringing up these issues because of the anticipated defensiveness. Encountered that a few times over the past two years and it had always made me feel so wretched, lost, confused, feeling as if I'm the wrong party and the matter(s) was never resolved.
But actually now I know that they have been merely swept under the carpet because I lack the courage to pursue... for fear of losing the relationship...
But is this not a one-sided relationship in the first place?
But actually now I know that they have been merely swept under the carpet because I lack the courage to pursue... for fear of losing the relationship...
But is this not a one-sided relationship in the first place?
Oh God, please help me! Feeling so wretched and painful... because of the decision I'm about to make...
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