Mondays

i don't know what's it with me and Monday.

It's the ONE day that i truly do not look forward to. i used to dread Mondays when i was a student. After two days of rest, i was so not happy at the prospect of wearing uniform, seeing my teachers and getting homework (Students, you must do your homework coz it's good for your brain).

Thought i had outgrew it all but i still dread Monday now... back to work, waking up early, beating the traffic (well, if i wake up much earlier than normal, i wouldn't have this prob), etc...

The dread starts early Sunday morning. When i wake up, all rise and shine, i'd think to myself, "It's Sunday! Yeah! ^__^ Tomorrow's Monday --___-- " Then as the day progresses, i'd get gloomier and lazier. Then by evening, i'd have this indescribable feeling... er i really don't how to describe it. It's a mixture of gloom, depression, sadness, laziness and all the negative feelings... (Hope it's not a sign of me going cuckoo.) i'm having it now coz it's a Sunday night.

As a responsible adult, as all adults should be, i should be mentally preparing myself for Monday, for work, for deadlines... but i could not. i am running away from work mentally... is there such a thing?

And the worst thing is that i could not sleep properly on a Sunday night. No matter what time i go to bed, i'd find myself tossing and turning, mind twirling, heart beating, telling myself to go to sleep... and nothing happens. Eventually i would fall asleep and tadaa... it's morning! Time to get up and go to work... and i look like... erm i just don't look good and neither is my mood.

When it's really bad, i'd find myself dozing off when i'm seated at my place in the staffroom. Great! What an embarrassment to the teaching profession. Let not ANY of my students catch me doing this... or have they already? But most of the time i'd look like as if i'm having a bad headache and therefore, the drowsiness... just to look good. Well, to my credit i have yet to fall asleep while teaching in class... Should that day arrive, i'd retire.

So now i don't go to sleep early on a Sunday night. i'm just wasting my time tossing and turning in bed. Might as well do something more 'productive' like... blogging? Maybe as i blog, i'd discover the answer to this issue i have with Monday; the solution that has been eluding me all these while.

But what puzzles me is that i'm fine with Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and there's definitely no problem with Saturday and Sunday. Anybody out there has a solution? Do let me know ASAP.

It's 11:30 p.m. on a Sunday night and i should be sleeping. But i'm still pretty much awake. Gotta find something else to do... just being productive...

Cheers! --___--