Bureaucracy

Working with the government is not an easy task. So much bureaucracy and red tapes!!!

I found out today at the Education Department that some documents are missing from my file. These papers are supposed to be from my school but they are not there. This means the support staff have not been updating our files!

I have been updating it myself by handing in the documents there but some docs are meant to be handled by my school, ie leave, Kew8 form (pay statement) and some government option forms.

The thought of dealing with my school's clerks, both from admin and accounts department, sends shudders through my whole body. Maybe it's because I know how slowly they work or worse still the docs are not around.

I am quite pessimistic when it comes to matters such as these. How do I overcome my mindset that they work slowly, never own up to their mistakes and in the end, should the unprocessed docs go missing, it will affect my study leave?

The lesson today is hard. Even as I mull over my pessimistic thought now and my heart's heavy-laden, there is God's still small voice at the back of my head telling me to trust Him.

However, the carnal being in me is just dejected, fearful, stressed and depressed over the looming protocol of going in to see the clerks, requesting them to process these docs.

I know going off is not an easy task but sometimes I really wish that the paperwork associated with it could just be easier... :(

Yes, am whining and complaining again.

I wonder how God could ever put up with and stand the sight of such whiner who obviously, again, has forgotten her supreme Father and has chosen, yet again, to complain first and bear the unnecessary burden herself...

Sorry... :(

So yeah. Again, I am reminded to go down on my knees (my bed) and commit everything into His big and mighty hands instead of whining...

How frail and weak is my thought... but I am learning to capture it all in Christ.